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My love of mine

2010-02-10T08:39:00.000-08:00

Don Maclean - Vincent

As my Tumblr l say : My time is all for him , what about his time ? Sigh ~ His time is like so busy , he gone all of his time on his daily work . He already neglect of me , we talk not over 10 minutes . l don't know what l should do right now , am afraid he'll just like that continuesly .

l would like to spend all of my time on him , cause he's the love of mine , l can't resist to ditch him alone . l don't mind how hurt am l , l just want him happy . That's all l wish when the 1st l couple with him . We broke up once , there's no another time .

He everytime tells me " Baby , l love you " " Baby , l miss you " , but he don't know what l really want the most . All l want he could stop down and open his arms and hug me like a baby . l really miss his warm hug , his soft lips and his hand holding mine . l cry for times when l listen to old love songs l collect for him , how l wish he could sing those songs for me . But he's a bad singer , so just l sing for him . Hahahha , l smile at him when he singing . How l miss his soft voice , his soft voice when make me smile all of the time .

l done lots stuff wanted to give him , not spend by money but from my heart . l so wanted to tell him how much l love him , non stop telling him l love him . l never try to love a guy so so so deep , not even my previous 1 year relationship . He's just so lovely for me , a sweet boyf l could get .

Yesterday we argue of a little stuff , but am glad he listen to me . l saved a lovely text from him for so long l waited , " Baby , am yours " . That was his 2nd time tell me that , is touched for me . Hmmmm ... If want me to talk about him , l think is much and much and much things to talk about . So yeah , l stop here . Will update next time l log in my blog . :)

Am back :)

2010-02-10T08:36:00.000-08:00

As a blogger l am , l ditched my blog for like months . Nevermind , l just couldn't find anything to write on my blog and it just too slow so i turned to be Tumblrina . :DD So people , am back to update . :) Miss me ? LOL okay , so yeah , am started to write some of my words am thinking to write down . :) lt won't update to Facebook like Tumblr , so am not worry others would comment like mad . LOL

my dearest poppakin and mommakin ! xoxo

2009-12-27T03:15:00.000-08:00

Chocolate , me , dad and mom

my house pair of couple :DD

Chocolate the lovely dog :DD

I LOVE YOU POPPAKIN AND MOMMAKIN ! <3

baby boy , i love you ! mwah !

Ster xoxo

eventho we so far to each other , but our heart never apart

2009-12-24T01:50:00.000-08:00

chik ka boom chik ka chik boom ! :DD currently at Pahang , Raub my uncle's place . oh ! my X'mas Eve actually can celebrate with baby , but i can't join them ! T-T

i know right is so WTF -.- i miss out the countdown with baby ! urgh ! -.- nvm , will countdown here with him . heeeeee !

oh oh , gotta go for family dinner . :DD

Ster xoxo

x'mas Eve ! :DD

2009-12-23T09:07:00.000-08:00

OH ! IS X'MAS EVE ! :DD

HAVE A GOOD NIGHT PEOPLE ! :DD

WISH FOR PRESENT FROM SANTA ! :DD

baby boy , i miss you :/

Ster , xoxo

Twilight

2009-12-23T08:12:00.000-08:00

how sweet ? ya , really sweet . :)

Twilight is not gay ! -.- i couldn't get why they label Twilight as gay when it's a romanance movie . -.- just a movie people ! but yeah , i don't deny it's a nice movie for couple . oh , how i wish can watch Twilight with Stin but so long we haven't watch even one romance movie .

oh anyway , i can't wait Twilight Eclipse ! OH MY GOD OH MY GOD OH MY GOD ! i hope i can watch together with Stin since he promised me to watch a movie long long long ago . :DD

TONG YUEN !! :DD

2009-12-23T06:17:00.000-08:00

COLOURFUL TONG YUEN ! :DD

Ster's Tong Yuen =P

Mum's Tong Yuen LOL x)

Bloop Bloop ! Tong Yuen is cooking ! :DD

see ! my bowl of Tong Yuen ! yum yum !

:DD

22nd of December , is the day to eat COLOURFUL TONG YUEN ! :DD OH MY GOD OH MY GOD ! IS SO NICE COS' It's SO SWEET ! heh !

but not really happy tho , cos' not with baby . :/ i so miss him , so so so miss him . :/ and yeah , tomorrow X'mas countdown also alone , baby also alone . sigh ~ have to go Pahang . :/ if not i can countdown with my baby . * babe , hope next year we can celebrate together :/ *

my X'mas wishes from Santa Claus :

1 . my Valentine Day baby could give me unexpected surprise ! :DD

2 . baby'll bring me to Sakae Sushi since he promised me :p

3 . baby'll bring me for candle light dinner ! heee .. :p

4 . celebrate romantic and sweet X'mas with baby :p

5 . want to be with baby forever ! :DD

6 . Justin Chua is my only man ! <3

eventho ppl says Santa Claus judge a child with their attitude and give present or don't . but i hope it'll come true next year . pls Santa , pls give me a surprise ! :DD

p/s : baby , i so so so love you ! mwah mwah mwah ! love you most ! :DD * hope baby read this post ! :DD *

he's my only one

2009-12-13T09:31:00.000-08:00

I LOVE MY MAN , Justin Chua

FUCKED UP ! ==

2009-12-10T09:06:00.000-08:00

CHEEBAI ! I DON'T WANT ATTEND PROM ALR ! -.-

now am really hate prom , why ? cos' i can't even find a dress suit me , i serious don't wanna attend alr . FLAT GIRL CAN WEAR TOP TUBE DRESS , WHY CAN'T I ?!

PISSED OFF ! FUCK OFF ! FUCKED UP !

what to do ? panicking !

2009-12-03T05:20:00.000-08:00

stuff inside my bag

sorry for ditch my blog these days , cos' am really lazy . hmmm .. soon SPM going to end . but prom is coming soon , very soon . i still didn't get my dress , heels , clutch and accessories . God ! i thought prom is that fun but now IT'S NOT ! it giving me trouble , have to buy this and that , am going broke like mad cow . -.- oh my , i hope this prom i can make it PERFECT ! once i lost my impression that night is really embarrassing , wish me luck people ! >_<

p/s : i found this icon from Maxine's profile , is cute . rofl -----> ┌П┐(>_<)┌П┐

he walked away silently

2009-11-27T10:41:00.000-08:00

MY HEART IS DEAD .

dead and gone , never back

2009-11-26T22:58:00.000-08:00

Framing Hanley - Alone In This Bed

what's up these days ? everything turn so colourless . everyone turn so moody and i can't do anything to make their day . :/ i failed this time . my smile and hyper don't work , anymore ? i don't know , let's time take away their pain .

love hurts , it doesn't cure in a short time , it doesn't cure by escaping it . as like Rou Yi says : if human live without heart . but it is impossible , human without heart we'll die . technology in this world still not upgrade until human's heart can be replace by computer or whatever . why do we have love and it grow between a boy and girl ?

i pass through things like this , i know how they feel . maybe the way i solve it wasn't others can do . what did i do to resolve this ? i don't know . now i don't counted as happy-go-lucky person in relationship problem , anymore . it really take me freaking long time to face it . i can't be like other biatches think relationship is a game . how unfair for guys if we girls take it as games , they don't know .

i don't know what happened to me these days , i can't take everything down , i fall apart and i can't get up anymore . i become weak day by day , i wasn't like old time could ever over hyper . things really change even my heart , attitude and mind .

my mood now is calm , very calm . have no any feeling and emotional , just like a dead person , dead and gone ? everything , so silent .

ppl got diabetes because of sweetest words from love one

2009-11-23T06:57:00.000-08:00

I LOVE YOU

I NEED YOU

I HEART YOU

I CHERISH YOU

I WANT EVERYTHING OF YOU , SUPERKALAFRAGELISTICEXPIALADOCIOUSLY GREEDY ME WANT EVERYTHING !

birthday boy ! :DD

2009-11-16T05:54:00.000-08:00

Happy Sweet 19th Birthday , babe ! :DD

sorry i can't go AC to accompany you since you ask for it , but i'll for your 20th birthday . :DD

love you most , babe .

xoxo ♥

Chris Dakota ; Sam LIansing

2009-11-14T04:41:00.000-08:00

they're HOT! OH OH OH OH MY GOD!! :DD

am i coward?

2009-11-14T03:25:00.000-08:00

my heart, my mind and my love is complicated. why am i hiding my feeling towards him?

somehow, people still study but am blogging! :DD

2009-11-12T06:10:00.001-08:00

OH OH OH OH MY! am so hyper lazy, these days. -.- i have no idea what to blog about, seriously. am still so relaxing since SPM coming in.. 5 DAYS! -.- right, Ster is serious giving up SPM not to study but online for whole day long until next morning. -.- pardon me, my mind is all about fun, not more. ahhh~ oh la la la! :DD

yesterday hung out with Ash and sis. -.- i know right, BAD DATE EVER!! wtff? sis following and how am i going have my private time with Ash? -.- uh! nevermind, we still have long time to go. :DD i so miss him, miss him, miss him and miss him! :DD

hmmm.. what else? oh ya, early morning around 8 something Justin called me to wish me, happy birthday? i think he wish me but am blur since am still sleeping. :P but i heard Ming's sound there " HI ESTHER!! HI ESTHER!! HI ESTHER!! HI HI HI ESTHER!! " -.- but i have no idea who was there with Justin, but i can sure is Ming! :DD but then i didn't go AC when Justin kept ask me go there, something happened between us haven't really settle, maybe. but honestly, am still not over him. i can't take anything from him anymore, i have to let go. ahhh.. forget about it, not important from now on. :DD

lalalalalalala~ end here! :DD stay tune!

Ster out.

my special present ever

2009-11-12T00:11:00.000-08:00

People i met : Sylvia ; Ash ; SooTing ; Audrey

Venue : Sunway Pyramid

17 big girl :DD

presented by : Sylvia and SooTing

*Strawberry flav*

instructions *English and Chinese version* x)

Condom!! :DD

happy sweet 17th birthday to me! :DD

2009-11-10T07:08:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ESTHER

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME

OMG!! am 17 when 12 sharp!! :DD kinda happy, but still bit sad. =/ i have no party like other got, i have no delicious cake and nice presents. =/ my dream birthday party once again *poof* gone! T-T

nevermind, i wish myself a very relaxing and happy birthday :DD

2009-11-07T01:19:00.000-08:00

Mo, can i sit with you and Armani on the rooftop watch the stars until the sunrise? :DD

i need HIM ♥

2009-11-07T00:36:00.000-08:00

insomnia make me suffer, i can't even sleep even tho am tired. i tried to sleep, but at the end i failed. what's wrong with me these days? i cried when sleep, i wake up when am going into my dreamland. am in stressful period, i don't really eat. all i just take fruits as my food. how long i can stand of this?

i need someone who could sing and hug me to sleep. stay beside me when am alone/sad. and who could ever give me some small happy everyday. all i just want a simple love, i don't need any branded stuff. why i can't get it?

Diana, where are you? i need someone who could lend me his/her shoulder, i need it so badly. please someone who rescue me out of this. =/

love always exist in us.

2009-11-07T00:16:00.000-08:00

dedicate to : Diana Roxxanne ; Kenny ; Armani

LOLOLOL!!

2009-11-05T05:26:00.000-08:00

i copied from Maha's blog. :DD

Anis (the bangla shisha worker) said that they like to go to rainforest cafe because it reminds them of their home in the jungle haha.

at MSN x)

Moi ; Maha

Ster. says:

LOL

worker's name you also know

wtffff?

Maha. [c=45] chocovanilla.[/c] says:

make fren mar

Ster. says:

home in the jungle

-.-

wthhhH?

Maha. [c=45] chocovanilla.[/c] says:

africans mar

Ster. says:

HAHAHAHAH

YOU ALSO FROM JUNGLE

LOLOLOL

Maha. [c=45] chocovanilla.[/c] says:

...

-.-

Ster. says:

PANDA MAH

HAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Maha. [c=45] chocovanilla.[/c] says:

phots craved our memories.

2009-11-04T22:51:00.001-08:00

GRADUATION CEREMONY PHOTOS 041109

PEOPLE, PHOTOS WILL BE UPLOAD TO FACEBOOK LATELY.

SORRY FOR MAKING YOU GUYS WAIT FOR LONG TIME.

all about em. xoxo ♥

2009-11-04T21:31:00.000-08:00

QUOTIESSSSSS!! :DD

RANDOM :

WHERE'S MAHA?! - the cutest Panda ever! manusia yang pupus, kerana the only one in the world! LOL! but.. I LOVE HIM!! :DD

1.. 2.. 3.. WOI!, his 1st word when pm me at MSN. -.-

4.. 5.. 6.. YOU LAH, PERVERT!, recently he keep calling me pervert cos' i saw his black and white boxes pattern boxer. -.- I ACCIDENTALLY SAW LAH!! wtffff? -.-

7.. 8.. 9.. LAZY LAH!, he got World Guinness Record Reward, the most lazy person. -.-

10.. 11.. 12.. GO SUNWAY, almost everyday his time spent at Sunway Pyramid. he getting more lifeless. -.-

13.. 14.. 15.. CANNOT AR?, he always says that to me when i complain stuff about him. LOL!

16.. 17.. 18.. SO LATE WAN, everytime i afk he always waited me very long time. heh! sorry lah! :P

19.. 20.. 21.. MCDONALD!!, almost everyday he took Mcdonald as lunch, dinner or supper. -.-

22.. 23.. 24.. FINE LAH!, he always merajuk by using that word.

25.. 26.. 27.. HAHAHAHA!! OFCOS!!, why he says that? cos' i pujuk him, keep telling him : Maha so cute, the cutest Maha. -.-

28.. 29.. 30.. NO NO NO!! DUN DUN DUN!!, LOLOLOLOL!! cos' i wanted to post here about : HE STALK MS.C!! HAHAHAHAHA!! *he still DUN DUN DUN!! NO NO NO!! at MSN. LOL! x)*

WHERE'S ARMANI?! - booo! he ditched me to Kenny yesterday. =/ he told me he'll be right back, but yet he didn't. how sad am i. =/

1.. 2.. 3.. PRINCESS, he called me that. -.-

4.. 5.. 6.. YOU SO CUTE LAH, he never stop telling me that. -.-

7.. 8.. 9.. *Armani, my branded boy. :DD*

WHERE'S DIANA?! - my sweet bitch ever, love her so much! :DD

1.. 2.. 3.. FUCK YOU BITCH, she always tiok suan, sure use that to me. -.-

4.. 5.. 6.. CHAO CHEEBAI, her phrase.

7.. 8.. 9.. ENG DAO!!, her eyes born to see HOT guy. duhhhh!

10.. 11.. 12 KENNY STEVIE LIEW BOON SOON, I LOVE YOU!!, she sad or angry of Kenny but she still love him deep and deep and deep.

WHERE'S ASH?! - he got blister, so yeah he got it so painful since he don't want listen my words. but am not that worry since heard that his blister recover soon. DRINK MORE WATER, STUPID ASHEN!! x)

1.. 2.. 3.. EVERYTIME I ASK WHY, SHE ALWAYS NOTHING, he complained that everytime.

4.. 5.. 6.. DON'T MERAJUK LAH! BIG GIRL ALR, he can merajuk and want pujuk some more.

HIGH SCHOOL LIFE, THE END!! :DD

yesterday graduated, OMG OMG OMG!! is so fast!!! O.O yesterday i woke up, look at the mirror and tell myself :

Ster, your new life going to start in a month time, today you graduate, your high school life end with a full stop.

i thought Graduation Ceremony will be that sucks, but it wasn't that sucks since kept on camwhored, signed on white uniform, autography and so on. is unexpected whatever happened yesterday, everything gone what i planned.

today, 1st thing after woke up i check my phone and there got 2 messages from my soulmate, Jessica. she's the 1st girlf i really close to, she's the one i met in high school, changed my mind and life, unexpected am the one who invited to attend her 13th birthday when 16 of January last 4 years.

Dear, I LOVE YOU!! xoxo ♥

okay okay, continue to QUOTIESSSS!! :DD

CHS-IAN :

WHERE'S WEN HAN?! - he wished me luck for SPM yesterday and he did laughed at my Trial results, bit merajuk with him but is fun to make fun to each other. i'll be back next year, miss him much!

1.. 2.. 3.. BIG WIDE SMILE!!, his best feature he always show to me, i love his smile. :DD

WHERE'S KIM YOONG?! - he's the most lame brother, he could ever do something funny to prank of. he also the one who laugh at my Trial results. pfft!

1.. 2.. 3.. DOUBLE 'O' LAH ES ES ES ES ES ESTHER WOO, he dropped on my Facebook wall yesterday after i dropped oh his and his 'YOONG' i typed single 'O'. x)

WHERE'S SOPHIA?! - she's the famous LATE QUUEN in CHS. everytime we bet of she late or don't. she always done something really funny and stupid but she make people day always with her sweatness and lameness. x)

1.. 2.. 3.. TUPID!, actually she wanted to say stupid to Jin Wing but she pronounce to tupid, she make something memorable again.

4.. 5.. 6.. STER!! HELP ME AND BRANDON TAKE PICTURE, in my camera 10 photos out of 9 photos craved of her. x) and i told Brandon : Brandon, i be camerawoman didn't get any pay. -.- *he laughed wide* -.-

WHERE'S PING MAY?! - she's most most most lame girlf i ever know for.. not a month? think so. x)

1.. 2.. 3.. THENG, THAT SYLVIA KEEP MOLEST ME, actually is she molest Sylvia. LOLOL!

4.. 5.. 6.. YOR! WHY STILL CAN'T TAKE PROPERLY? KEEP HALF FACE OF ME, she self camwhore with me yesterday but her face always took half. i called her : NOOB x)

WHERE'S SYLVIA?! - i knew her since primary 4, for 8 years we knew each other. she the most lame girlf like Ping May. x)

1.. 2.. 3.. LADY GAGA!! WOOOOOOOOOOO!!, she's Lady Gaga BIG fans, pardon her. x)

4.. 5.. 6.. LOL!, she always only LOL. lol queen. x)

WHERE'S BEN?! - i knew him for 5 years, lame is his trademark. x) Benji always zat me until i have nothing to say. -.-

1.. 2.. 3.. I ZAT YOU MEAN YOU'RE MY FRIEND, he tell me that when i ask him why keep zat me.

4.. 5.. 6.. PCD!!, PCD BIG fans. -.-

QUOTIESSSS!! will be continue, stay tuned! :DD

Ster out.

the sky can show something bad or good

2009-10-30T10:58:00.000-07:00

TONIGHT SKY IS RED BIT PINK IN COLOUR.

Ster out.

am not over you.

2009-10-28T05:32:00.000-07:00

things past few days or maybe weeks, but am still not over it.

fuck it for these lifeless days, is miracle i gone to school for 2 weeks. i didn't even talk much in the class besides i doing my own stuff. god, everything is freaked me out. in my class am was like quarantine by others but yet thank god the only person he didn't, that's CHOKIE!

we play like small kid with some little funny game, cards game or 10 20. -_____- i know right, we being so lifeless like other juniors did than study for SPM that coming in 2 weeks time. i really didn't realize time was really short, i still sit in front mu ladtop listening and dancing for my hyper nice songs. LOL! pardon my idiotic way to waste my time. x)

great, tomorrow am not going school since others skipping school to Wai Leong's house. hmmm.. finally i got my sleeping fantatsic day! :p sorry darl, am skip school again. :DD

Ster off.

i got my fun time with em, no doubt nor deny, they're my very best friend

2009-10-24T02:15:00.000-07:00

currently listen to : The Pussycat Dolls - Bottle Pop

person who i met : Andy ; Chee Peng ; Sylvia ; Jessica ; Ai Ginn ; Wai Kuan ; *i don't know what his name*

yesterday went to Amp Square celebrate Andy sweet 17th birthday. is really fun, we sang until sore throat, getting freaking high, jumping all over the sofa. x)

school end around 1230pm, me, Sylvia, Wai Kuan, Ai Ginn went to Kanna Curry House had our lunch then follow up Chee Peng met up with us. while we having our lunch, we chit-chat like no one care of. around 0130pm, we gone to Ipoh Chicken Rice Shop look for our birthday boy, Andy Lim! x)

hmmm, too bad i didn't eat Andy's birthday cake. =/ but nevermind, the cake is with a hyper thick chocolate, not my favourite. x) then me and Sylvia ciao to TTC, Sylvia change clothes while wait for Theng.

almost 0200pm, ciao from school and dropped Sylvia they all at Sunway Pyramid then me and Theng back home take a shower and change. almost 0300pm ciao from house to Sunway Pyramid. before go Amp Square Theng bought nice clutch bag from Lense. then we hang around and had our early dinner at Pommes Fries. x)

around 0630pm, we just enter Amp Square for an hour fun! x) after Amp Square met up with Aundrey then back home. x) is really nice and fun day, so what's the next fun birthday celebration for me? :DD

* i bought BM workbook, believe it or not? *

not longer belong to him

2009-10-20T08:00:00.000-07:00

Just a very short story,

story about me and him.

Once upon a time.....

i love you, just a simple 3 words i did tell him before.

i miss him even more when he not with me.

cos' i miss him too much ,i cried until am tired.

my heart, was made by paper.

he used up lots of paper and wanted to replace it.

how long could he replace?

and now, my paper heart is into pieces.

he don't want replace anymore.

my heart, end up replace by myself so hard but it is not perfect like he replace for me.

THE END

baby, i still love you.

2009-10-14T05:03:00.000-07:00

i know how was the feeling of let go, still feel sad but i have to. for so long time we being together but he's the one who put full stop early, but am the one who stupidly change the full stop into comma. see? he early not belong to me, but i still tie him with me so i decided to let him go.

i still love him, i love him more he suffer more. am too greedy want him, greedy until he changed and trying to push me away and now he did it. for him, he'll feel happy stress-less, but me cry quietly feel so disappointed. he took away my heart, he ruthless hurt me. is this call love?

at 1st taste is sweet, sweet until people jealous. now i know how strong is this poison could ever kill my heart. my heart is so dead full, i couldn't feel the pain but my tears rolls down. i try to smile but i failed. i try to console myself but nothing happen to my emotional.

i know he could find better girl, i'll wish him. now i expect him 1 last thing, hope he could do his promises to me.

爱是如此的甜蜜，但是也如此的痛苦。曾经爱过也曾经痛苦过，他既然在早前已经把我推开，不如我帮他了断一切，这应该是他所要吧？我曾经是他的公主，而现在公主变回丑小鸭。我太爱他，爱到不舍得放手，但最后我还是放手了。他可以翻脸不认人，只有他自己知道，我爱他爱到什么程度。

friendship never end between us. (:

2009-10-11T10:20:00.000-07:00

AAR concert ticket!! :DD

T-T my knee.. sigh~

people i met : O-Chibi ; Ash ; Theng ; Sylvia

hmmm.. it was 3 days ago and now i just blog of it. -____- Friday went out with Then and Sylvia, have shopping but what a bad day i didn't buy anything! T-T Sylvia bought new nice black belt and Theng bought new nice heels at Eclipse and lubricate of Durex Play at Guardian. until now i still sad of it. T-T nevermind, we had our dinner at a nice pasta shop, but then i forgot the name. -____- who cares? as long pasta we ordered is nice. :DD

oh ya, when Theng choosing her heels i gone to met up with Chibi and Ash. they serious bullying me. T-T i walked for whole day and they asked me to meet them at Jusco foodcourt. -___- heartless people. but then is okay for that, most hurt and sad stuff is, THEY SO FREAKING TALL and am so freaking short. =/ we just like a panda between 2 bamboos tree. wtf? -____- is so unfair lah this world. ish! =/

and and, Ash let me annoyed him until speechless and don't wanna talk. x) while he talking with Chibi, i was like trying to disturb him. HAHAHAH!! serious Ash got fed up and quiet. LOL! so, Chibi decided to take revenge and try to be annoying until i got fed up. okay, that's fair. x)

me, Theng and Sylvia hang until 8 something i think then Sylvia's father fetch me and Theng back home. haaaa.. when reach Theng's house, Theng wanted to see what was inside the Durex Play box. hah! i laugh like mad cos' Theng too rash to buy it and bought wrong stuff. she thought it is condom inside but too bad is lubricate. LOL! okay okay, don't wanna talk about it since Sylvia talked for damn 3 days. LOL!

here a touched story and song to share.. :DD

skip school, no doubt

2009-10-05T07:20:00.000-07:00

Dance like Strip dancer! :DD

PMR students good luck! :DD

i have been 3 days didn't go school. hmmm.. i don't give a damn of school now since finished trial and soon SPM. -_____- so yeah, not going school until PMR end or maybe not going school until the day before graduate. :DD

am 17.

2009-10-04T03:30:00.000-07:00

i changed. am not 7 years old anymore. am 17!

i could behave myself like others did. don't treat me as kid anymore.

i hate being boundary in anything, my freedom i hate being boundary.

so please do stop everything. i got my own thinking and will decide what am i going to do.

i just want to be independent and don't need anyone hold me like baby learning how to walk.

i got my own freedom to decide anything for my own future.

Ster grown up, don't treat her like small kid anymore.

nothing, just my very long essay over 300 words, i think (:

2009-10-04T02:14:00.000-07:00

do you ever got pissed of a person? i bet you guys got. i got pissed a bitch who name Lok Lee Ping. hmmm.. maybe he don't read my blog or maybe she did. so yeah, i post up my fucking essay about her. too bad, teacher who mark essay paper not open minded. but nevermind, i don't mind. duh!

Lok Lee Ping, for the damn 4 years i know about you, i just know how fucking bitchy you're. all the while you just fucking challenging my patient to you. but do you ever know what'll happen after a person burst out of their patient limit line? i bet that you never fucking know har? but nevermind, i'll tell here. oooh! i so hope you'll read my blog aye? (:

maybe guys think that you're so innocent and cute. oh my godness! they all blind, their eyes folded by your fucking innocent face. hmmm.. people who know about might think that you're slut or bitch who flirt around. you couple with Hansher we serious nothing to talk about cos' you love his dick, he loves your holes. (: what about another boyf you couple now? O.o he do loves your holes too? ha!! i don't wanna talk about it so much. cos' is not worth i care it.

and yeah, you called 5P6 childish class? erm.. a person who mature like you not suit in this class. you don't mind and fucking hate this class please do fuck off. we don't invite bitch or slut in this class. you tell me Loong not childish? you don't push your fucking words to me man. Loong they all will childish because they appreciated this very last year be with friends and fool around. you thought they serious childish? they never shown up their childish face outside to outsider. so please, make everything clear just bark here and there. (:

oh oh!! my outsider friends like Fizmo, Kimi, Ash bla bla bla.. i hate people being racist. you being racist we can't do anything. but please respect them. they're my very best friend than you. i know you don't need any self-respect, but they all need. so please shut your fuck up! you have no qualify to talk shit of them.

and about Jeralynn, in this world only Jeralynn. you can't be like her. and you dare talk shit in front of me why don't in front of her? she smoke so? her freedom to smoke. you thought Jeralynn they all close to you? puik! they didn't. know why Hean didn't find you? cos' he ignoring you. ha!! you doesn't know that right? nevermind nevermind, here i tell you. (: oh my god! your face is so fucking thick! vindicate to Hean, do you know how Shinji they all act like? hmmm.. i don't think i have to tell you. blah! :DD

last thing, don't ever treat people like not deserved to respect by others. know what? i also need self-respect. i just keep quiet and don't wanna fight with cos' am giving you self-respect. i can confirm that no one will let you lose your face in front the world. but please do appreciate and thankful to us. (: so yeah, accept the fact darling. no harm to accept. (:

hangover ==

2009-10-03T19:54:00.000-07:00

yesterday Schuey's hosue had a mooncake festival party. few of us gone to his house. :DD am drunk, vomit and cry like a baby. hangover, is killing me. -______-

am lazy to talk much about it..

picture will tell the story... -______-

== am drunk, but still can SMS

Prince so damn cute! :DD

Schuey on da' car!! x)

LOL! i never know that Schuey so freaking cute!! x)

Schuey's leftover ==

last year P6 together. =/

because of chocolate ==

my 1st time camwhore with Alvin

almost drunk

xiangang ==

cho dai di! x)

am not a slave obey any bid.

2009-10-01T04:53:00.000-07:00

am here to post up things about me, i kept everything up from everyone who know or don't know me. but all past i walk through, only i know it so clear. it clear until i feel so hurt and feel so pathetic. i wanted to have new life, i wanted change to be a new me, i wanted to do whatever i want so much, i wanted to do alot alot of things i can't for the past few years when am still a small kid, now am 17 years old girl going to be an adult very soon.

my high school life going to end soon in 1 month time, am very happy but yet am stress of face my future. just these few months, i know alot new friends, friends who ever care for me, who ever support me and lots. only 1 thing i know, they don't know how i feel and think. i got my own personal comment, i know what am i doing, i know how my life going to continue it. because my comment, my thinking, my life i changed to become a person who trying hide up everything even my feelings.

people out there who insult me, gossip about me, i don't care. yes, am very angry about it, but i can't do anything, i hide my anger, my sadness and my stressful mood. i can't shown up to everyone, cos' i know they'll use pity eyesight on me. i hate people pity me, this considered insulting my personality and underestimate me. i can endure humiliation in silence but they still challenging my patient. i can be very patient to outsider, but they'll get back everything they do to me, double hurt from me.

my relationship don't need any permission. am not a kind of people who easily capitulate. am also not a coward who not dare to face my relationship problem. other people will ask me give up, if i give up this is not call love. i want to face my problem but not escape it. maybe people don't agree, but this is way i hold my relationship.

last time am a coward person who skip home, but now am not anymore. am grown up, am know how to plan my future, am not easily control by others. i changed. not like daddy's little girl anymore, don't treat me like 7 years old little girl. i grown up.

don't make me got pissed, please respect me. challenge me if you don't want any self-respect.

Ster out.

AAR concert ; One Utama, KL (10 October 2009)

2009-09-26T12:53:00.000-07:00

AAR Concert

Date : 10 October 2009

Venue : One Utama, KL

*if you sign up Digi Music Unlimited you'll be able redeem ONE ticket per Digi user's number.*

*redeem at Sunway Pyramid or One Utama Digi centre*

Ster out.

puppy always so lovely.

2009-09-26T12:23:00.001-07:00

OMG!! OMG!! they're just so cute!! x) sorry lah! i'm dog lover, so i love dog so freaking much. x) enjoy!! :DD

HAHAHAH!! it just like complaining something else. x)

this pug damn bad weyh. x)

Ster out.

night stalker ; random

2009-09-26T01:24:00.000-07:00

i'm so sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeepy! -.- i sleep at 0500am, most early is 0325am or if i serious tired. wake up around 0730am, most late 0330pm. -.- i know right, i'm night stalker. i used to be have this kind of life, it started since last year. hmmm.. i think it'll continue for rest of my life.

random stuff :

- i love Justin Chua! ♥

- i want to sleeeeeeeeeeep. -.-

- i'm hungry.. >.~

- IS SO HOT HEREEEEEE!! blah!

Ster out.

where gto ghost?! 吓到笑

2009-09-22T10:14:00.000-07:00

*scream* I WANTED TO WATCH THIS MOVIE!! is so freaking funny, i keep on laughing in front of my ladtop. LOL!

plan is still a plan.

2009-09-22T09:38:00.000-07:00

i found a hyper nice skin for my blog. heh! is so much better then previous skin i use. x)

things have been planned :

- extra class for BM

- have a hair cut near Theng's mum office

whoopsss!

2009-09-22T04:21:00.000-07:00

stay tuned for new update. (:

relink

2009-09-22T04:20:00.000-07:00

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